First I'd share the story of my last time at Nagaloka, the words of Jayaraja about how privileged he was to be served tea by the makers of a better (caste less) India:
You are all still with me; those who have made the strongest positive impression (not necessarily those I love the most) are:
Arya
Maitriratna
Sujit
I still want to follow up all 16 students who recorded their 10 year ambitions. Just as with all big dreams, this is proving harder to do than to imagine, though the imagination spurs me on to make the plans and do the "keep coming back" to India as well as the emailing, facebooking, phone calls and checking in with friends going/coming back from India and the friends in common.
I'm conditioned/hard-wired to want to "help" & at times to feel "guilty" for having money and for how I spend it; this is a naive approach to the worlds problems, I know. I'm growing into someone who knows my role is to be alongside you as a friend, giving my time which is of equal value to yours.
Let me share with you the self-portrait which lays myself bare as just another "Duckhead".
If I get to be at the front of the Nagaloka class again, I'd again want to share
http://iwantyouradvice.blogspot.co.uk and ask for your advice.
Next perhaps I'd suggest we act out the play of this story:
http://www.freebuddhistaudio.com/audio/details?num=LOC1380
